Monday, January 19, 2009

PROGRESS - night three

Night Three;

  • Went over to Ka's house & drank a little.
  • Felt a little tipsy ... though I only had two sips of wine.
  • Missed him.
  • Want to talk to him.
  • Mailee called, but he wasn't home. He's probably rov qab mus zov hmo again.
  • I cried again ... seeing Ka's house brings back memories.
  • Don't want to go back to school on Tuesday ...
  • Want to ask him ...but I can already hear his rejection.
  • Anxious and nervous to see what tomorrow will bring.
  • I miss him.
  • I still love him.
  • I still care.

* I miss him. I don't really know what to do. I guess drinking doesn't really help you much, but make you cry because your emotions are all poured out... He's driving me crazy. I can't wait to see him, but I know he wouldn't want to see me. I miss him...like so much. I wish he cared & knew ... I wish he felt how I felt ... I wish he would come back & love me again.

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