PROGRESS - night ten.

I'm doing okay these days. I guess. Last night, I went through my stuff yesterday because we were cleaning out the house for our move, and I found some letters from him. I thought I packed everything of his away, but eh, I guess not. I read them, and I read my old journal entries that I wrote while we were dating. Gaw...we were so happy, or at least I was. I was reading what he told to me about his parents and grandparents. I was also reading how he always called me "beautiful" and "babe" and how he always said, "I miss you." Aww...he never says that anymore... And he never tells me he loves me anymore either... well, that is before we broke up anyways. I mean, yeah, sometimes he calls and says, " Love you " before we hang up... but that's just a normal thing to say. He just never says it out of no where like before anymore & having meaning to it, and I guess I don't say it too, but I tell him I miss him. x( Don't I deserve some love? hehehe... Oh well... I guess it doesn't matter now. I've decided, I'm leaving, but I will leave my door open for his return. That's only if he returns without being with a girl first. Idk... we'll see what tomorrow brings. I know for a fact that what I decide today won't be my final judgement until I am finally up and over this. (: