PROGRESS - night one.

Okay, so it's 11 PM @ night. I called him earlier to talk to him, but New Tang picked up. He said Tomnema wasn't home, so I guess. I'm still waiting for his call, but I bet he's probably over at Meng's house because they might've gone to the studio today for his class. I'm always alone on Fridays. x(

I talked to Ka tonight & we went over things that were built up in our chest. It felt good to release them. She blabbered away about hers and I blabbered away about mines. We both just sorta didn't care to answer each other. LOL. I miss doing that with her. She sorta took off everything, and I guess I don't really need his call tonight, but it would make me really happy if he did call me. You know, just to ask how I'm doing. I still want to hear his voice.

Well, I guess this is gonna have to be like this for awhile. I'll give him some time & space; when he feels like he needs me again, I'll be there. I'll miss him dearly, but I guess through all this, I'll get to see my ability without him.

Night One;

• I cried five times.
• I felt miserable the whole day.
• I couldn't concentrate.
• I missed him like fuck on the bus.
• Wanted to see him so badly.
• Wanted another hug. x(