It's been ten days now ... I guess I'm still surviving. I finally got to talk to him though. It was a weird encounter. It felt like it was how we first met. (: I miss him... sorta. He asked how I was doing & I said surviving. He's stressing out. He's off to Indiana this weekend for a college interview. Aww ... Ima miss my babyy. He's finally growing up. (: [ yes, i still say things like this. ] Sigh... I hope his trip goes by fine. Hope he returns safely... because I just might end up killing myself if he doesn't return. A part of me worries about him because he's leaving. But I'm sure he'll be fine. Besides, we're not dating anymore ... I just wish him the best ... though we finally talked... I feel like probably he just wanted to talk to get my combo? IDK... I hope not ... because I was really happy he talked to me . x) No one still tops him in my heart. ♥
Anyways ... I was thinking & I sorta have a feeling that I wanna wait my whole life for him... Idk... it's like that saying, "Yog kuv tsis tau koj tiam no, kuv tsis xav tau leej twg." or whatever. I still feel committed to him... I still feel like sometimes we're still together... but at the same time ... I know that this is reality and I need to accept things the way they are ... though I can barely do it... Sigh... babyy, I miss you... koj puas paub os? Gaw... I wanna hear about your days at work again. And I wanna hear about your finals... I really miss you darling ... Talk to me would you?
Sometimes I wonder if you ever think about me... sometimes I wonder if you miss me. Sometimes I wonder if you've eaten and how you're doing. Sometimes I wonder if you're warm enough... sometimes I wonder why you're willing to throw away everything that we've been through away... I feel like this is back to being FRESHMAN & JUNIOR year again... when I had that enromous crush on you again. Hehehe ... always waiting to see you get on the bus; and when you do, always look out the corner of my eyes at you. Hehe... I really miss how we use to babe... Do you miss me? Do you miss us? Do you miss who you use to be when you were with me? Because I do ... I miss myself... I miss feeling compelete. You always made me happy no matter how tough the day was ... My door's still open darling ... you still have the key... don't give the key to anyone else okay? Cause you're the only one I want to be with for the rest of my life...
Promise me to keep in touch with me when you're off to college. (:
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