Again, I'm missing him big time. I must be the biggest master of disguise, I swear. I feel like sometimes I hide things away from people to make me feel better... Sometimes I feel like I bother too much people. I don't want to be a burden to them about my love life... I'm not only annoying him & friends, but myself also. I can't wait till I get over this phase.
We're going to really pack things and get a move this weekend. I'll miss this house and the memories that were created by him and me, but oh well. They're just memories and eventually they'll get replaced, right? ... Sigh... but you know what I'll miss most? I'll miss how he would make me wake up on those early summer mornings and how he'll ride his bike over to my house. And when he's there, he'll hold me and kiss me and tell me things that I never hear him say anymore. Thinking about it, we were a lot more stronger during the summer than during school time. It felt as if though we barely got to hang out over the summer, he was more into me and we actually spent more quality time together. He actually calls and he actually tells me he loves me... Aww... those good summer loving days... My good old Tomnema...
I don't blame him for anything ... but I will blame him for not communicating with me anymore right now. LOL. I wonder how he's doing in Indiana... must be tired and bored. I wish he'd call me & tell me how he's doing down there. My cellphone works again, but I don't think he has a clue... You're the best damn thing that happened in my life... I hope you know that... I love you.
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