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Today during sixth hour Mailee told me that his friends asked him about me and him, but REFERRED ME AS THAT ONE GIRL. Like WTF? Ugh... I do have a name too and I know and call them by their names. Piss me off. Just because you guys are seniors doesn't mean you can put down a sophomore like me. Gosh, SENIORS ARE SO RUDE. I fucken swear... Anyways... Mailee told me that he wouldn't tell them and that his face was all red and his eyes got watery. Then at lunch, he came and sat by them and I guess he told them about our break up. I guess to me, I shouldn't care anymore... It pisses me off how I respect them and they don't respect me. It pisses me off how I can't talk to him how we use to talk anymore. It pisses me off because the thought of girls asking him to Sno Daze and the thought of him saying yes. I don't know what am I suppose to do anymore. I've been told about observations of him. UGH... everything makes me really confused and upset. I just want things to go the way they are suppose to go. If we are meant to be, then GOD DAMN BRING HIM BACK ALREADY! How much longer am I going to have to suffer and wonder about him? How much longer am I going to have to live my life like this? How much longer am I going to have to listen to others tell me about how he's doing. Gaww.... just fucken do what is suppose to be done already!!!!!!