Gawd ... I swear sometimes you make me so frustrated. It's like, a part of you wants me to stay, but yet you keep pushing me away. What is it that you want? I don't know how to deal with this anymore. I've cried myself an ocean ... and there's nothing left to cry out anymore. Sometimes it'll rain & it'll storm, but I can no longer cry for you. Sigh ... I don't know what it is that both you and I want anymore. We can't seem to get our minds straight about each other.
Gawd -- I am still upset that you gave yourself away to her like that ... and as of right now, I can't forgive you for what you have done. I can't forgive and seek pass that it was in the past & it was a mistake. To me, it's like you did it on purpose & it's like you wanted it; even if she came onto you. I am still upset, VERY UPSET.
I don't know what to do anymore. I want to hold onto you, but yet at the same time, it seems as if you don't even want me anymore. Then when I let go, you seem to hold on. I don't want you out of my life, I don't want you to disappear....I don't like it when you put yourself down like that. GAWD ... BLAH! ... Sigh ... I feel like such a cold person with no heart ... yet, I can't stop loving you... I think I'm going bipolar for real. x(
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