I haven't felt...squishy, warm, or lovey-dovey in such a long time. It's kind of hard to picture & imagine going back that way. To hold someone's hand, to miss someone, hug, kiss, talk on the phone with. But this song brings back so many of those memories...not about Tomnema...but about "That-Ugly-Thing"...or so I call him. I remember when I liked him so much. Always wanted him to notice me, and when he did, I push it away saying it's just a "typical thing" he does with every girl. Sometimes I wish I really took the chance to know him, talk to him, be a creep. LOL. I remember getting so angry at him for going out with SHABBAH...and then felt sad for & with him when they broke up. I never got the story straight of why they broke up, but I still felt sad for his ass, his ugly ass. LOL.
& then there was SIAB-SIAB. Hahaha. Man he was the HOTTEST thing I've seen. LOL. His personality was just super cute. I loved the way he talked, how he SOUNDED smart, and how he was just a funny person. LOL. I still remember that "DATE" with him. LOL. Even if he doesn't claim it as a date, I DO! LOL. That was the best date ever. LOL. Yeleng just knows exactly what I want. I guess he can read my damn WHITE NINJA mind. Hahaha.
But through it all, I felt like an invisible person. I felt like a third wheel. Someone who they see around, say hi to, talk to when they want to, like those nerds in those meka movies you know? & it's hard when you want to be with them so much...but yet at the same time, it's these things that make me laugh. Hahaha. Boy...it brings back a lot ... of memories and emotions. (:
"Baby let me love you, let me want you. You just see right through me, but only if you knew me, we could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable ... but instead I'm just invisible". - Invisible; Taylor Swift
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