Sunday, November 1, 2009

Philophobia ♥

I'm totally confused. Okay...so this was how tonight went.

I was sitting on the computer texting Ge & then BOOM! I got a text from a Florida number. It says:

Him:Heya what are you up to? Oh and this is Tj.
Me: I'm doing nothing. Just net stuff. Lol. Who's phone are you using?
Him: My sister's phone since I'm stuck at the party doing nothing ... You should've came ... LOL.

... [and the texting continued] ...

Him: ... But I meant it's much better and more fun to talk to you ... Lol.

And then he said he'll text me back when he got home; he never did. Then suddenly, I logged onto Facebook and his status was *Sigh* What a night ... Was fun somewhat...But wish "THAT SOMEONE" was there with me...

I went...WHA?!! Who? ;/ Unfortunately...he wasn't on & he never texted back and now I'm stuck with all these stupid thoughts. OH WHAT THE HECK. GRRR.

You know...maybe I'm just being stubborn like Mai Xiong. Maybe I do like him; but I'm just not willing to accept that fact.

I'm scare of rejection. I'm scare that he won't feel the same way about me as I do for him. I'm scare I'll always have to wait for him no matter what it is...like what I'm doing right now.

I miss him right now. I've been thinking about him constantly this whole week since I've been avoiding things. Sigh...

11-1-09
He just told me that the person he wished to be at the party was an old friend ... ;/ See ... again, I proved my heart wrong. Now I just feel completely stupid. Thanks again.

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