I`m Ready.

On Monday January 19th 2009, I picked his flower petals apart, and put them in a jar to put away. On the jar I wrote,

♥ These rose petals are a symbol of our memories. When I no love longer you, no longer miss you, when I am up & over you, I'll let them float off with the wind, so that they will no longer linger around me. So that these memories can be erased & so that I can move on without you in my life.

♥ Mai Chou Vang

P.S - I still love you.

And so this is the day. I think I'm finally able to let them float away with the wind. I'm finally ready to let go. Nine months & twenty-three days have gone by. Almost one year Bae; almost one year that your rose petals stayed by my side. I cared about you, I loved you, I missed & hurt secretly over you. But I no longer will anymore. Thank you for all the memories. Thank you for showing me what love was in our time being for one year & two months. I'll always treasure you; and deep inside my heart will always be a place for you.

Now that I think about it, all the dreams I've been having about you were all pointing me towards this situation. Every dream I had about you was always about us being together, doing something together, you trying to sweep me off my feet again. At first, I'll give in, then a second later, I'll push you away with the thought of, "This is wrong. We're no longer together." And I'll walk away from you. It was a sign saying I'm finally ready to move on, to let you go.

One year & two months was our love. Two years and seven days were mines for you. I'm ready Bae; I'm ready to let go.