"Mai"

You know what's really weird? Tomnema & I were having a little argument over something stupid and he said, "cmon mai, i know i am sounding like a jerk but still, these things arent that hard to figure out." For some reason when he said my name, OMG, I just felt super sad. Idk why, but it kinda seems like ever since we have dated, it seemed like he never called me by my name. It's like he never knew my name. He always went with, you, her, she - all the pronouns, and he always called me Kia whenever he talked with a family member about me or called me Babe when we were alone. I never heard him call me, "Mai" in front of me; nor did he even messaged me "Mai" on MSN. Well, I guess this blog entry is just here to say that it feels good to hear him call my name in a sad way. Sigh.

And oh yeah, you know how we were arguing and I got kinda pissed off and I was just like, "Sure whatever fine" and stuff right? And then when he was about to leave he said, "if i am done early, which i doubt, ill get back on and we can chitter chatter." Idk why, but that put a smile on my face. Though I myself know that he's not going to talk about what I wanna talk about with him, probably just more school stuff. Sigh. Idk. I feel sad thinking about him.

WISH - a four letter word with lots of meanings, but no guarantees. - The Truth About Whatever by Sarah Dessen.