Beyond Words

I know everything changes and words can't be kept, and etc...but what you did was very disappointing. I've told you before, if you're gonna kill her, do it. Don't leave her hanging on wounded with no one to turn to. Yeah, she took you for granted last summer, but does that make you better to take revenge back on her? Meeting a girl on a trip to China with your peers made you change your feelings and everything on her? I thought you were faithful, loyal, and forgiving. What happened? I don't get it. You know you can't be with that girl, you know that she's taken, you know that she'll never be with you, so why are you gonna force someone out of your heart? Especially the one that loves you very much?

You let her go at first, and she was just getting stable, and then suddenly you go and pull her back into your arms and embrace her, telling her you love her and want to start over. Then suddenly, 10 days after you left, you come back telling her, "I don't want to be with you anymore." That's beyond ridiculous. You're putting yourself out there for anyone to grab. You're hurting others to make yourself feel better. You don't want to talk about it because you don't want to hear me yell at you. Well guess what? We're gonna talk about it!

I can't believe you're doing this. What about "she just made a mistake. We're all human, we make mistakes and if no one is there to prove her wrong, she's gonna continue on making those mistakes." ?? WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT HUH?! If you stopped all of this "friends w/ benefit" thing from the beginning like how I told you, then I wouldn't be this angry. I would have agreed and help supported you. But no, you went away, then pulled her back and now it's just too insane and crazy and it just makes me angry! She is a woman, and I am a woman, and even though she made mistakes that I detest her for, what you're doing is just inhumane. I understand what she's going through and I feel what she's going through.

I hope you really think this through before you ignore this whole CONVERSATION that you're not willing to have with me. I hope you know that we're just doing this because we LOVE you. & I hope you know that by doing this, you're gonna lose the most important people in your life.

Change is good, but your kind of change is...preposterous. It's beyond belief. Think it through good so you won't regret it later. I wish you luck.