Undescribable ♥

Tonight was an undescribable night. I love being next to him. He doesn't make me nervous or anything; he just keeps me smiling. I love his smile, I love the sexiness of his body and I love it even more knowing that he is a lefty. Hahaha. I think left handed guys are totally hot! ... Man, I don't know how to describe it. He just totally made my night tonight. (:

His back was facing me the whole night tonight...if only I had the guts, I would've totally jumped on his back and hug him and never let go. He looks so...comfy to hug. LOL. I feel like a BIG pervert and creep here right at this moment, but I can not help how I feel as of the moment!

I think I would totally cry if he went out with some other girl. I would totally feel "dumped" even though we didn't go out. LOL. But damn, it really makes me scare of my feelings too as of the moment. I keep having these what if's. What if he asked me out and I just said YES cause I liked him so much, but in reality he only went out with me because someone forced him to? And what if at the end, we broke up and he told me he was miserable the whole time dating me and he felt bad the whole time dating me? I think I would totally cry my eyeballs out forever & then forever hate guys! But I don't wanna think about that. I just want to think of how sexy he looked tonight. Kekeke.

But dang, he's so quiet. I wonder how he "talks to a lot of girls" when he's always not talking. He barely said a single word at the party man! But I guess he's got his ways, but dang, I don't wanna think about that right now. LMFAOOO.

I'm so glad I went tonight. I'm so glad I got to see him over the weekend. But now I can't get him out of my mind. He's running back and forth. I keep see the outline of his body. I keep seeing his gorgeous smile, his beautiful face. I keep thinking of how comfy it'd be to hold him, how warm his hands would be. Oh gosh...He's beautiful inside & out....