I've told myself many times to keep hanging on even though he's clueless. I've told myself so many times that he's just been busy with himself & this summer. I've told myself so many times that if I keep in touch, maybe he'll realize something. I've soon came to realize that it's been nothing but a waste of time for my feelings. I don't really wanna care anymore. Tomnema says if I like someone & yet they put me through this much, then I deserve better. I'll take his words & slowly start on another journey of moving on. Everything happens for a reason right? He's a really goofy & cool person & I guess friendship is all we need right now. We still need time to mature & grow. Nou Soua made me realize, I don't have a reason why I like him, I just do. He has a good point, yet I have my own reasons. There's just something about him that's so unexplainable. Yet, the strongest & biggest reason why I'm pulling myself away is I'm doing this for my sister. (:
Her heart skips beats @ the moment she sees his online status. She reads his stuff, hurts her stupid self - cause he doesn't know she exists cause she's too chicken to say something. I'll let what I want go because I love her & this is for her. (: [And no, we don't like the same guy. BLAH if we did. Hahahaha.] So she better make this worth letting go cause I'm letting my feelings fly, letting my bipolar-ness come back, and yet, stay the happiest person in world. (: He's special to her, yet his brother is special to me. Ha, what a world ain't it? Oh well. I've came to realize, we aren't going to get anywhere & I'm just going to get myself hurt & it isn't going to be worth it.
Like they say, everything happens for a reason; I just hope this reason is going to be a reasonable reason.
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