I can't believe it. Senior year is really here and tomorrow is really the last day of my high school career. It doesn't seem believable. I still feel like I am not a senior and I still feel like I'm not going to graduate. But graduation is in one week...parents, friends, and families are going to be there giving me support and flowers to congratulate me. Wow...life really doesn't wait for anybody.
Though I am graduating, I do have one wish. I thought he'd remember and I thought he'd come to walk through Central with me one last time. I guess he's too busy with his life to remember about the little freshman girl he swept off her feet. The one that he cradled like a little baby, and then dropped her at the world's end. Even if he comes back, she's grown up now. She matured without him...she'll survive. It's just nice to know that he's still there...I guess.
Graduating brings happiness, yet at the same time, I feel so sad. One; because he won't be there like how I expected at the end of my childish freshman year. & Two; because my dad won't be there to hug me and tell me, "You did a great job." He won't be there to shake my hand, pat my head, and hold me tight in recognition that his daughter has done greatly and even graduated with honors. He won't be there to see me hold my diploma and switch my tassel from my right to my left. He won't be there to see me in my red gown, and he won't be there to take pictures. I wish I can bring him, but when it comes to words end, he won't come. That's how life was, and that's how life will always be. It saddens me to know that I'm between two worlds. My mom & my dad's. I can't decide to pick one side because one side grew up with me, while the other was the one who gave me life. I know they both love me, but life won't let them be together anymore. *Sigh...
I guess it's better to forgive and forget. Life has it's plans already set out. You just have to add in the details and make the best from it. Well...senior year, here I come. Ready to wear my red gown, turn my tassel, and walk down that stage with my diploma. Ready to see the world and make my own path...I just hope they're all good decisions. Ready to live life free, but with responsibilities. Ready...to give love another chance. (:
Good-bye Central...Good-bye old and new friends...Good-bye High School Memories. (:
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